Curtis Dawson

♥ Happy Easter to you and your family precious Curtis ♥

Bereaved Parents Wish List

I wish my child hadn't died. I wish I had him
back!!
I wish you wouldn't be afraid to speak my child's name. My child lived and was very important to me. I need to hear that he was important to you also.
If I cry and get emotional when you talk about my child, I wish you knew that it isn't because you have hurt me. My child's death is the cause of my tears. You have talked about my child and you have allowed me to share my grief. I thank you for both.
Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn't shy away from me. I need you now more than ever.
I need diversions, so I do want to hear about you, but I also want you to hear about me. I might be sad and I might cry, but I wish you would let me talk about my child; my favorite topic of the day.
I know that you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my child's death pains you too. I wish you would let me know these things through a phone call, a card or note, or a real big hug.
I wish you wouldn't expect my grief to be over. These first years
are traumatic for me, but I wish you could understand that my grief will never be over. I will suffer the death of my child until the day I die.
I am working hard in my recovery, but I wish you could understand that I will never fully recover. I will always miss my child and I will always grieve that they are gone.
I wish you wouldn't expect me "not to think about it" or "be happy". Neither will happen for a very long time, so don't frustrate yourself.
I don't want to have a "Pity party", but I do wish you would let me grieve. I must hurt before I can heal.
I wish you understood how my life has shattered. I know it is miserable for you to be around me when I'm feeling miserable. Please be as patient with me as I am with you.
When I say, "I'm doing okay", I wish you could understand that I don't "feel" okay and that I struggle daily.
I wish you knew that all of the grief reactions I'm having are very normal. Depression, anger, hopelessness and overwhelming sadness are all to be expected. So please excuse me when I'm quiet and withdrawn or irritable and cranky.
Your advice to "take it one day at a time" is excellent advice.
However, a day is too much and too fast for me right now. I wish you could understand that I'm doing good to handle an hour at a time.
Please excuse me if I seem rude, certainly not my intent. Sometimes the world around me goes too fast and I need to get off. When I walk away, I wish you would let me find a quiet place to spend time alone.
I wish you understood that grief changes people. When my child died, a big part of me died with him. I am not the same person I was before my child died and I will never be that person again.
I wish very much that you could understand ~ understand my loss and my grief.
But....
I pray daily that you will never understand

ALL MY LOVE XOXO

The sunset along my horizon,
is the rising sun above your hills.
it brings the night; a dark illusion,
as it welcomes your morning and your day it fills.

During these moments i tend to wonder...

When you walk home late at night,
along the empty coblestone streets,
and the sun peaks through the landscape into site,
Do you think of me?

With a pack on your back and trails at your feet,
all the creatures, the streams and beauty you see,
during cultural traditions and with all the new people you meet,
Do you think of me?

When awe of nature's creations take your breath away,
and your ears are filled with sweet melody
of the wind, and willows, and booming waterfalls forte,
Do you think of me?

Well...

When my night falls and darkness surrounds me,
I think of your day and pray that its great.
When the morning light is in site and the sun comes to greet me,
I hope it left you a colorful sunset and in a peaceful state.
As I travel and go about my life with laughs and smiles,
I imagine where you are and that you are smiling too.
If trials and tribulations obstruct my path, or if I've had a bad day,
I think of you and hope that maybe once in a while, along your way---
You think of me too.

SO SORRY TO SEE & READ ABOUT CURTIS'S GRANDPA...THE DATE ~ JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE MY BIRTHDAY.  ANGEL MOMS ~ WE ARE!

THANK YOU FOR ADDING JARRETT TO YOUR ANGEL COLLAGE.  I JUST CRIED WHEN I SEEN HIM INCLUDED AND REALIZED - JUST HOW MANY YOUNG PEOPLE HAVE PASSED BEFORE THEIR OWN PARENTS.  JUST ISN'T FAIR. 

THINKING OF YOU ~ ALWAYS! 

~JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I WAS THINKING OF YOU~

  HAPPY VALENTINE'S  DAY ANGEL!                                    
                                       

 MAY GOD COMFORT YOU ETERNALLY IN HEAVEN!
MAY YOUR HEAVENLY LIGHT SHINE UPON YOU ETERNALLY! BE AT PEACE SWEET ANGEL. PRAYING THAT ALL OUR ANGELS HAVE MET IN HEAVEN, AND THEY ARE JOINING FORCE TO COMFORT ALL THE PARENTS ALONG THESE LONELY JOURNEYS. AMEN.

AMEN--Thank you so much for the beautiful graphic, always thinking of our precious angels!   XOXO

Thank you Cathy for the beautiful graphic!!!   Always thinking of our Precious Angels!

Thank you so much Terri for the graphic, its so pretty!!!

Always thinking of our precious angels!

HANDSOME CURTIS ~ HAVE A HAPPY VALENTINES DAY IN HEAVEN...2010

Thank you Becky for the beautiful graphic, I love it!

Our angels will always be in our hearts!